maybe one day, maybe someday, maybe never at all.

It's very hard to concentrate while writing this, because I'm listening to music...I know I should turn it off so I can write this properly, but I just can't...I don't want to interrupt the beauty. I feel sort of rude. ;) Anyhow, let me just keep thinking...
I think the point of this entry is to make an official mark of what I'd hope to accomplish...things both relatively soon and far off. I think I like documenting things. It's easier to do online, though, because it takes up no space except the virtual..yet then again, there's nothing more beautiful than words on paper, to pick up and find again when you're older. Not to mention, it's solid..it can't mysteriously delete itself, it's tangible, it's...everything sweet and wonderful. I like paper. Though I do say, as much as I like keeping my "stuff" and posessions to a minimum, I have been making an effort to keep a few scraps of paper that I know I'll smile on a few years down the road.
.. oh what a rabbit trail I just went down. So. Aspirations.

Foster children. I don't know exactly where that idea came from...but it stuck. I like to teach...I like to love...I want to be able to nurture and grow children, teens especially, with all the strength I have. Teens especially...because they're the forgotten ones, usually. Most people look for an adorable baby, for them to raise as their own and under their ways. Nobody wants a moody, struggling, more than likely rebellious and obstinate teen. But I think they're exactly the ones I'd like to reach out to. Provide them with a (hopefully) stable, God-fearing, encouraging environment before they leave to make their own way. Just as much help I can give to them before they have to start making their own decisions.

Direct films. Media is a gigantic passion of mine, but film in particular holds me captivated. Films have more sway over culture than almost anything, and quality films are few and far between. People trust Steven Spielburg over George Bush. I love the idea of being involved in everything from the musical composition of the film, to the script writing itself, to having my ultimate vision of the storyline become a reality. (Michael says it's because I'm a control freak. ;) )

Intern with CFC. There are many people with this passion, I think. Ever since my first conference, I've always felt it was something I should do. As I got more and more familiar with it, I realized that it was actually a possibility. I just...love seeing people light on fire, and understand the significance of communication and the impacts it can make. I remember the Friday Night Program last week, and how my eyes kept darting back and forth - from the performance to the audience, trying to see if they were at all inspired or motivated. I really do care..and I believe that it's something God wants me to pursue.

There are much smaller, more trivial things I'd like to accomplish on a more day-to-day basis, but these are the three that have been circulating through my mind the most.

You take the pieces of the dreams that you have, cause you don't like the way they seem to be going. You cut them up and spread them out on the floor. You're full of hope as you begin rearranging..