I feel sick. Not so much physically sick, just mentally sick. My mind has been racing these past few weeks, and I can't seem to make it stop. I have a hard time sleeping, I have a hard time focusing, I have a hard time being pleasant. I can't think about any issue for longer than two minutes before my mind jumps to something else, and when it does, I can't return to my previous train of thought no matter how hard I try. (it's also a problem with reading. people are both skeptical and in shock over how fast I read sometimes, but it's an issue with my brain. My mind refuses to "read" words, unless they're unfamiliar. It scans them and jumps, sentence by sentence. I can't help it.) But in this state of mental sickness I've also been very critical of myself, and kind of overbearing. Doesn't it stink when you don't know how to deal with your own self? I mean, I've always been critical of myself, but it's always worse when I'm critiquing myself while in a foul mood. In that sense, I am my own worst enemy.

I bought music today, though. That should've cheered me up. The new Mew album, Regina Spektor's "Dance Anthem of the 80's", Salems "It's only You pt.2", and a couple other oddsnends alternative songs. Gosh, sometimes I just sit frustratedly on my bed after listening to music and ponder how someone could make something so...hauntingly brilliant, especially lyrically. Oh, and I know this is disjointed, but I just feel the need to make it official - I love the songs from Dr. Horrible. And I know it's a comedy, but I take it so seriously, especially "Everything you Ever".

WHoa, I just said that.

Anyways, this is getting disjointed. Off to face another day.