she puts her hands against the life she had / living with ignorance, blissful and sad

metize = the act of making any conversation about me

usage - I tend to metize everyone else's blogs

There's this really awesome blog out there called Balderdash. The concept is, essentially, it takes all those comment verification words and defines them applicably. Anyways, I read this one and it immediately clicked with me. In normal conversation, online chat, and blogger - I tend to try and point everything someone says or writes back to how it applies to...well...me. In some ways, it's not a negative. It's almost an effort to relate with the other person, and find a connection through experience and tastes. In another, it is. Because instead of really considering and thinking of the other person, and how it must feel for them, I'm thinking about myself and how whatever they said/did relates back to me and my experiences, knowledge, likes and dislikes. And that's normal, very normal, granted. And I know on the flip side that I do like hearing about what my friends have to say regarding something I'm going through. So where is the line drawn?

"What I mean is, as a human, I am flawed in that it is difficult for me to consider others before myself. It feels like I have to fight against this force, this current within me that, more often than not, wants to avoid serious issues and please myself, buy things for myself, feed myself, entertain myself, and all of that. All I'm saying is that if we, as a species, could fix our self-absorption, we could end a lot of pain in this world."

- Blue Like Jazz

I'm fooling myself into thinking I can achieve all the things I aspire to....true, loving, lasting friendships...furthering my skills as a writer....a better understanding of God and his plan...multiple things. But how can I reach any of those when my compass is pointed towards myself?

“Self is ingenious, crooked, and, governed by subtle and snaky desire, admits of endless turnings and qualifications, and the deluded worshippers of self vainly imagine that they can gratify every worldly desire, and at the same time possess the Truth”

- James Allen